I know it’s been a week since Thanksgiving but watching and listening to this ^ mashup made a brief giving of thanks necessary:
Many songs in this video were a throwback to my year in America - perhaps an indicator of how much my music taste deteriorated over there (damn you, dance community!) JK jk. I know these end-of-year mashups often instil nostalgia and hence a false sense that ‘THIS YEAR WAS THE BEST EVAHHH’, but this year, that statement is not far from the truth for me. I guess my 2013 is neatly summarised by one word: ‘America’ … dayum what a glorious word. Without America and without my Americanisation (No, I’m still spelling words with ‘s’ and not ‘z’ don’t you take that away from me), I probably wouldn’t be writing this sappy post of thanksgiving. (I think it’s still too early for me to appreciate all the ‘THIS YEAAR AH AM GWATEFUL FOR DIS AND DIS AND DIS’ and ‘THANKSGIVING IS A BOOTIFUL DAY OF FANX’ statuses that inundated FB. Y’all need to control your emotions, come on.)
I never thought I would love America THIS much, but yes - I am immensely grateful for the opportunities I stumbled upon and for the friends who welcomed me into this kooky little place that is the Bay Area, and into America in general (everybody who gave me a home on my travels), and for everything you guys shared with me. You guys made America another place I can call home (ewwwwwwww so cheesy). It’s been 3 months - I still miss SF and Berkeley and Cali and my friends like crazy and practically all the time. Coming back to the UK was (and still is) difficult because Berkeley withdrawals + 4th year pressures is not a good concoction. But I think that, finally, instead of “crying that it’s over”, I can start to “be grateful that it happened”.
So, I guess, thanks to AMURRICA and thanks to music and Daniel Kim for making me realise all of this. Also, just writing this post out has proved to be intensely therapeutic, so thanks for my ability to type and write and come up with such sexy soothing words.